Loud As Hope...

I haven't posted in a while because of the stressfulness of starting sixth form. Joy, oh joy. Its literally like a slap in the face. We thought that GCSE's were reasonably difficult to balance, but A Levels...*shudders in fear*...

So, I could do a huge post about how hard my first week of Sixth Form was, but to be honest, it'll only depress me further. But, my saviour over the last week has been my ipod. I've invested quite a bit of cash on it through Itunes over the past week. I'm scared to look at my debit card bill... So, I've seen these quizzes floating around the magical world of the interweb. I know that all I seem to post now are these question things, but I promise to do a proper post soon. So this is one of the ones where you put your Ipod on shuffle, and it answers questions about you. Sometimes the answers don't make sense, but when they do, they're usually hilarious! I should make it clear that my Ipod is on shuffle, so I'm not picking the songs, just in case it gets awkward. Should hopefully be funny, considering my music taste...


1. Whats your motto?
Sinning Hands - Iron & Wine


2. What do your friends think of you?
Sunshine - The All-American Rejects


3. What do you think about a lot?
Sunday - Bloc Party


4. What do you think of your friends?
Days of Summer - Starkid


5. What do you think about the person that you like?
One and Only - Adele (No joke. My Ipod has my future planned out apparently...)


6. What is your life story?
I Need A Holiday - Scouting For Girls


7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
 Booooom, Blast and Ruin - Biffy Clyro


8. What do you think when you see the person that you like?
Sparks Fly - Taylor Swift


9. What do your parents think of you?
She's So Lovely - Scouting For Girls (My mum laughed when I showed her this...)


10. What will they play at your wedding?
Hannah - Freelance Whales


11. What will they play at your funeral?
Haunted - Taylor Swift (I genuinely laughed out loud at this one...)


12. Whats your hobby/interest?
Dirty Dancehall - The Zutons


13. Whats your biggest secret?
Somewhere only we know - The Warblers/ Glee Cast version


14. What do you think of your friends?
Party In A Forest - The Wombats


15. Whats to worst thing that could happen?
No No No - Yeah Yeah Yeahs (That was so weird to type out...)


16. How will you die?
L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N - Noah & The Whale (I found this hilarious!)


17. What is the one thing that you regret?
Your Biggest Mistake - Ellie Goulding (Starting to get creeped out by my Ipod...)


18. What makes you laugh?
School Uniforms - The Wombats


19. What makes you cry?
Magick - Klaxons


20. Will you ever get married?
Speak Now - Taylor Swift (If you listen to the lyrics, you'll be creeped out!)


21. What scares you the most?
My First Wedding - The Wombats (Its not even funny anymore...)


22. Does anybody like you?
The Immortals - Kings of Leon


23. If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Just Say Yes - Snow Patrol


24. What hurts right now?
You - The Pretty Reckless


25. What will I post this as?
Loud As Hope - Iron & Wine


Well, that worked better than planned! Apparently my Ipod has some rather sensible answers. A little bit creeped out now though...

Quiz-type-thing...

Hello again! So while having a quick look through all the blogs that I myself have subscribed to, I came across this quiz type thing. Its from http://mystcal.blogspot.com/ So all credit goes to them. They have said that I could use it by the way, I haven't just stole it....
So anyway, heres the quiz type thing...

What was your....
Last beverage - Diet Coke
Last phone call - To the boyfriend :3
Last text - About a second ago...
Last song you listened to - Broken Horse, by the Freelance Whales.
Have you ever....
Dated someone twice - Nope, but I've had a crush on an ex before...
Been cheated on - Nope
Kissed someone and regretted it - Nope
Lost someone special - Luckily, nope.
Been depressed - Yea...
Been drunk and threw up - Nope. Fear of vomiting stops that...

List three favourite colours....
Turquoise, Coral Pink and White.
This year (2011) have you....
Made a new friend - Yeaaaa
Fallen out of love - Sort of, if you count that as love.
Laughed until you cried - On a weekly basis...
Met someone who changed you - Yea.
Found out who your true friends were - Definitely.
Found out someone was talking about you - Many times.
Kissed anyone on your Facebook friends list - For once, I can say yes.
How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? - All.
How many kids do you want to have? - 2. A boy then a girl. 
Do you have any pets? - Nope...
Do you want to change your name? - Nah, way to common. 
What did you do for your last birthday? - Meal out with mates :)
What time did you wake up today? - 6.30 a.m.
What were you doing at midnight last night? - Harry Potter audio book. Oh, yeah!
Name something you CANNOT wait for - Paris with my friends! 
Last time you saw your mother - Two minutes ago, eating tea...
What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? - How I always panic.
What are you listening to right now? - I'm sure you asked this before...
Have you ever talked to a guy called Tom? - Many.
What's getting on your nerves right now? - Friends not being on E4. Enough said.
Most visited webpage - Facebook!
Real name - For me to know.
Nicknames - Would give my name away ;)
Relationship status - In a relationship with...

Male or Female - Female
Elementary - Do you mean first school?
High school - Do you mean Middle School?
College - Do you mean High School? Pfth. You can tell that I'm English.
Hair colour - Brown, but the boyfriend says I'm ginger ;)
Long or short - Middle-ish...?
Height - Normal-ish...?
Do you have a crush on someone? - Ahuh.
What do you like about yourself? - My eyes. Thats about it though...
Piercings - Ears.
Tattoos - Pfth. No. 

Righty or lefty - Righty!
Firsts....

First surgery - Never had any.
First piercing - When I was about 7.
First REAL best friend - Sadly, not until High School.
First sport you joined - Football. I used to be a tomboy, ok? 

First holiday - Corfu, when I was about 2 weeks old...
Right now....

Eating - Cheesecake. Nom.
Drinking - Diet Coke. You've already asked me this, I'm sure...?
Listening to - Third time you've asked me this. Really?
Waiting for - Boyfriend to get the hell online!
Your future....
Want kids - 2. You have asked me this!
Get married - Yeaaaaaaaah.

Which is better?....
Lips or eyes? - Having both would be a bonus...
Hugs or kisses? - Hmm, kisses are nice, but hugs win. Hugs that turn into kisses?
Shorter or taller? - Taller. I'm such a hypocrite!
Older or younger? - ...same age...?
Romantic or spontaneous? - Spontaneous.
Nice stomach or nice arms? - Arms. But I wouldn't say no to a nice six pack.
Sensitive or loud? - A nice balance.
Hook-up or relationship? - Honestly? Hook-up. I'm such a boy!
Trouble maker or hesitant? - Trouble maker. Ofth. 
Have you ever....
Kissed a stranger - Technically, I didn't know him that well...
Drank hard liquor - Ahuh.
Lost glasses/contacts - Nope, never needed them.
Kissed on first date - Nah, second.
Broken someone's heart - Apparently.
Had your own heart broken - Ahuh.
Been arrested - Nope.
Turned someone down - Yeaa...
Cried when someone died - Never had anyone close to me die...
Fallen for a friend - Of course.

Do you believe in....
Yourself - If we're taking the literally, then yes, I do believe that I exist.
Miracles - Nope. Shouldn't build up false hope.
Love at first sight - Nope.
Heaven - Sadly, nope. Reincarnation.
Santa Claus - Of course!
Kiss on the first date - Yea.
Angels - Nope.
Answer truthfully....
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time? - Nope.
Did you sing today? - Yea, I sing constantly when I'm at home...
Ever cheated on somebody? - Nope. Same question as before...?
If you could go back in time, how far would you go? - About 3 years.
If you could pick a day from this year and relive it, what would it be?- 13th May

Are you afraid of falling in love?- Yup. Petrified.

So that took me longer than I thought it would...

Anyway, I started sixth form today. The awkward moment when your boyfriend is in your form class, so attempts to cling onto you all day to avoid making friends. Yea. I feel so mean, because I basically ignored him all day so that he would talk to other people. Yea. 

He got asked out by someone yesterday. He said no and that he had a girlfriend, but apparently she didn't get the message. Today, the same girl asked him to go for lunch with her. He said that he wanted to spend time with me. Wow. Boyfriend did good. Said girl gave me in excess of 15 hackies today. Job well done. 

What 40% of me feels like...

So, as far as I was aware, having a boyfriend is meant to be amazing. And don't get me wrong, I really like him and everything he does, etc... BUT, what happens when said boyfriend is clingy? Very clingy...

So, I've known him for less than a week. I know that we're probably supposed to get to know each other before you go out and stuff, but we clicked, so we started going straight out. So, I saw him on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday. Thursday, he texted me constantly, saying how it felt like we'd spent weeks apart. I hadn't even known him for three days. Err, what?!


I may have or may not have mentioned it before, but I HATE clingy boys with a passion. I'd rather that they'd ignore me than fuss over me. I don't like the feeling of being trapped. And, sure, I don't feel necessarily 'trapped', just I feel like he likes me a lot more than I like him. For example, when talking about when we were next going to meet up, he sent this : "I'll be ready to meet at a moments notice beautiful! <3"  Now, texts like that, send tremors of fear through commitment phobics, like me. 


Its not just in text form either. The other day, we went out with my friends so that he could meet them. I have to admit, he handled it pretty well, but with exception of the constant displays of affection in public places! Sheesh. He wants to hold hands everywhere! Which I quite like, but is a little bit awkward when you're with your mates. On the train home, I had to keep saying no to him kissing me because I felt so bad for the people sitting opposite us! He offered to carry my shopping for me. I had three bags. I don't need help with three bags. I know he's trying to be nice, and genuinely to a certain extent, I do like it. But theres about 10% of me that panics whenever stuff like this happens.


Then on top of that 10%, theres another 30% of me thats worried that we're moving way to fast. I mean, I only met him on Tuesday, had my first kiss on Wednesday with him, then by Friday, we're properly making out. I'm not one of these people who thinks that kissing is a big deal, but I know for a fact that he wants to go further. And I'm not ready for that. He says he'll wait though. I've ended up setting myself limits each day, and having to trust myself to not let him go over them. The thing is though, I know for a fact that if we start off kissing then 'get into it' I'll just go with it. Then regret it. 


So I thought that writing this post would make me feel better. It hasn't. Its made me worry more. I'm 16, and I feel like I've just hit how I should have been when I was 10 with boys. I've just got over the "Eww, boys!" stage, and I'm currently in the "N'wah, maybe, I'll let him kiss me..." stage, but I should be in the "Hey, want to come over and watch a 'dvd'...?" stage by now! Notice the quotation marks around 'dvd'. THEY SCARE ME. 


So, I kind of would like peoples opinions on things. Am I being stupid, or sensible? Any tips or advice? I could really do with some help on this one. Bye...

Just a little post...

So, just another little post today. I'm very happy. Today, at the age of 16 (pathetic, I know!), I had my first kiss. Just thought I should let you know, seeing as I tell you basically everything else going on in my love life. So, yeah, one very happy Amy :D

A huge update in the world of boys...

Hello world of bloggers, readers and those who seem to stumble across this blog with no intention of reading it! Now, as you probably know, I like to blog about boys a lot, and, today, something monumental happened. I, the chief singleton of Singleville, have a boyfriend. And, you lot have never heard of him before.......But, lets do all of this in chronological order, and I have you tell you all about GN2...

So, I told GN2 that I liked him the other day. By text. I know, right? I so wanted to do it in person! Anyway, he took it well, but said no and was genuinely nice about it. Its confusing when boys are nice, isn't it? So anyway thats him out of the picture.


So, back to present time and today! Well, I've been talking to this guy who is going to my sixth form for the past few weeks and we decided to meet up. I should say that you shouldn't meet up with strangers from the internet, just getting my responsible adult part in there. And anyway, me and this guy have literally everything in common. Literally everything! He's a Potter-nerd, he has almost identical taste in music, he likes the same types of movies as me, we both love sushi, the list could go on, and on, and on... So anyway, we met up today. And, well, we're going out now. One very happy Amy over here!


Sorry for the short post, but yea, byeeeeeeeeeee.....

Results Day...

So, today is results day. I have to say, I'm rather pleased! I got all the grades I wanted (apart from Drama), so here they are: 

Art - A*
English Language - A
English Literature - A
Maths - B
History - B
Drama - C 
Business Studies - B
Core Science - A
Additional Science - A


So this means that I can go on and do Maths, Biology, Chemistry and Psychology at A Level! I'm not sure why I'm happy about this, it can only mean more work after all... I said in my last post that I would probably start slagging off the examiners, and I have to say, most of them seem to have been fairly generous...


APART FROM DRAMA. For those who don't take drama, the exam involves performing in a group, in front of an audience and the examiner, while being filmed. So we actually got to meet the woman who decided our fate. She seemed nice at the time, but, apparently no one in my school got above a C for their performance! Shocking! Especially when its such a high-demanding exam, and many of us spent literally months preparing! Sheesh...


Anyway, in other news, GN2 decided to text me. The day after I posted my last post. Basically, we had a hour and a half long argument over who was winning the poking war, which then developed into who was more sexy. This lead to him saying, in a way, that I was sexy. The exact text was, "Look, I know you are, but the problem is, I am more! x" I don't know whether to be happy about this or not. I mean, obviously I'm happy about it, but really do I want to be called sexy? 


So, he came and gave me two hugs today. I bottled out of telling him. He was nervous for opening his results and I thought it would be harsh for me to suddenly go, "WAIT. Screw your results! I need to tell you something!" So anyway, he doesn't know. BUT, he might now be going to my school, which means that I might see him tomorrow, and I might see him next year! That is if he gets the results, I'm now regretting flirting with him in Science all this year. I'm torn between texting him now and asking if he's got the grades to get into sixth form, but I don't want to seem clingy. Anyway, we'll see tomorrow. And, theres no rush to tell him now. As long as he doesn't change his mobile number, then I can still talk to him. 


Happy Days...

Confusion...

So, another update on the boy side of things today.


When I went to the 'Land of Harry Potter', the other week, I gave GN2 (the guy I like) my number via Facebook. My thinking behind this was that in Scotland, there is very little, if any signal, therefore I wouldn't be able to get on the internet to talk to him. Of course, I was wrong, and there was actually reasonably good signal in the Land of Scots, as long as you stayed close to civilisation (go figure, huh?). For me this was bad. I could see that he was online, therefore know that he would have seen the message, but now, three weeks later, he has not text me. Urgh. To make matters worse, he STILL pokes me on Facebook. He's not even trying to hide the fact that he's seen the message! So everytime I maybe start to get over him and think that he's forgotten about me, so I can forget about him, he 'pokes' me. In my head, this is him saying, "Yeah, I saw your number, but no. I'm just going to string you along for a bit and let you think that maybe I might be thinking about you." It hurts. Bad. 


A friend an I worked out the other day that I've liked him for at least 8 months. Now, if theres one thing I should point out about myself its that it may seem that I like a lot of guys, but I don't. I tend to like a guy for maybe a couple of weeks, then see a fault in him and move on (Bad because among my friends, I think I have the reputation as a bit of a 'slut'. They're joking though. At least, I think they are...). This time I haven't. 8 months! And I know that he has faults (a hell of a lot, actually) but for the first time I'm not blind towards them, but I'm willing to accept them. And this scares me a hell of a lot. 


I saw a Facebook group the other day, it was worded something like, "Scientific research has shown that a crush only lasts for 6 months, after that, its love." Well, at least the feeling is mutual! LOL. (HEAVY sarcasm)...


So anyway, I've figured that I should probably tell him how I feel. Awkwardness... In theory though, I only have to see him one more time in the entirety my life. So I've got nothing to loose, right? Wrong. All of his friends, including his maybe-current girlfriend are going to my school next year. If he tells them, my life for the next two years is over. Literally. I'll probably be murdered in the middle of the night, or at worst, bitch-slapped in front of everyone. 


So now I'm faced with a dilemma. Do I tell him, meaning that I'll be hated by most people in my school, but have the tinniest chance that I might end up with him, or do I not, and  just try and get over him? I don't even know what to think any more. 


So that my friends is why I'm confused. 


As a little side note, its results day this Thursday. *Starts to shake and throw up with nerves* So expect a post about how much I hate the people who marked my exams soon...