A confession...

I have a slight confession today. You see, I've cheated. Yes, cheated. Its my fault, not yours, and I hope that we can work it out and go back to how it was. You see, I've cheated on you. Yes, you. I've cheated on Blogging with journalling. I'm sure we can make this all work out.

Thats where I've been all this time. I haven't been revising for exams like I told you, I've been journalling. I know we were relying on these exams for my future job prospects, and I'm sorry that I lied to you.  But, it was so easy for me to cheat. Sometimes, you're just unbearable! You've changed since last month. I'm no longer getting the 30+ views a day, or a steady steam of followers, which I feel our relationship was relying on. You hardly talk to me anymore, and to be honest, I just don't think you're interested.


If you want to know, its just a one off, just this summer. I paid £7.00 for a journal that I can pour my heart into, with no fear of being laughed at, or rejected. She's very pretty, not as pretty as you, of course, but none the less, very pretty. She has a butterfly cover, which is of course no match for your blue birds. She lets me use proper names, none of this 'GN2' or 'Friend no. 1' business, and no one else needs to read it. She has her faults too though. She makes me write EVERY day. Can you imagine that? Thats why I'm always tired and have run out of ideas when I come back to you. 


I hope we can work through this. I'm not leaving you, just you're going to have to share me and my writing with Journal. I'll try and write more often. I still love you, but you could show some interest in me, commenting, telling friends to follow (hint, hint) - it all helps!

Boys, again...

Another post on boys. Sorry. It might pay you to read my last one if you haven't already... 


I was walking with one of my friends today, and we happened to get onto the subject of boys. Again. Now, for a few weeks, i've been kidding myself that I don't like Guy Number 2 anymore, but deep down, I've known that in reality, I'm nowhere near over him. So, casually slipping this into our convosation, I was a little bit  worried about how my friend would react. "Whaaat?! NO! You were making progress Amy, real progress," was something like how it went. My friend then decided to set me a little bit of homework. For tomorrow (or today, depending how long I end up writing for), I have to write a 1000 word essay on the pro's and con's of each guy I like (theres only two, so don't worry) and post it on here. So here is a 1000 word essay on The Pro's and Con's of 'Guy Number 1' and 'Guy Number 2'. (We'll say GN1 and GN2 for short)...

So, heres the thing. I like two guys, both of which have really good things AND really bad things. Take GN2 for instance, he’s adorable and gives the best hugs ever, but, he has a girlfriend and all my friends think he’s a player. Similarly, GN1 is really sweet and kind, but, we hardly ever talk and he kind of annoys me. So hopefully, through this essay, I’ll find out which guy I like more, well I will in theory. So here it goes...

GN1

We used to be quite close. Half a year ago, we would sit next to each other in lesson and mess around and stuff. For example, we almost went to prom together. We both asked each other at the exact same time, which led to me panicking and saying that I wasn’t going (everyone laugh at my stupidity). I would also catch him and his friends staring at me, as though they were talking about me. It doesn’t sound much, but thats sort of what originally made me like him, the fact that I had even the tiniest little chance with him.

On the other hand, we’re total opposites. He’s loud, confident and will talk to basically anyone; I’m quiet, have as little self confidence that is possible, and would rather sit in the corner in silence than talk with the idiots of my science class. This has led to me analysing his every move while we’re in lessons, just to see if he talks the same way to everyone. Pathetic, I know. This has also led to me thinking that he likes other girls. I managed to convince myself for half a year that he likes a girl in my science class, for no reason other than he talks to her more than most people. 

We’re both really competitive, which has led to some hilarious lessons. When we sit next to each other, we have drawing competitions, writing competitions, basically anything as long as we can beat each other at it. The best one I remember was who could get the loudest ‘pop’ when we were doing something called ‘The Squeaky Pop Test’ in science (I won, just saying). 

Pretty much totally unrelated, but I hardly know any of his friends, and those who I do, I don’t particularly like. He hangs around with a group of people, who in England are known as ‘chavs’. Wikipedia sums it up pretty well : "Chavs" are said to be aggressive teenagers, of working class background, who repeatedly engage in anti-social behaviour such as street drinking, drug abuse and rowdiness, or other forms of juvenile delinquency. I should probably point out, that he is not a ‘chav’, just his friends are, but if by the slimmest chance I do end up going out with him, then shouldn’t I be able to get along with his friends (without wanting to vomit due to the smell of cigarette smoke being emitted from them)?

GN2

We have history. This is where it gets confusing. GN2 got GN1 to ask me out for him two years ago (oh, the irony), we went out for about a week, but I called it off because he was a little be ‘obsessive’. For instance, after he got GN1 to ask me out, that night he called me 14 times to ask me to go for lunch with him the next day. Now, as a ‘commitment-phobic’ that scared the hell out of me. When we did go out for lunch, we spent the whole time in awkward silence, which also creeped me out.

He’s lovely. He gives me hugs, we play footsie, we shove each other off of the table and mess up each others work, we have pen fights, water fights, we share Ipods, he picks me up, we have a laugh, we flirt, the list could go on... A girl in my science class said that we’re like an old married couple. Mind, I also think that that girl is psychic as she casually asked if I had ever heard of the ‘elastic-band method of flirting’, while we were in front of GN2. This led to me panicking for half an hour over how she knew AND what GN2 knew...

He has a girlfriend. They’ve been together for two years, and if I’m being honest, I’m insanely jealous of her. When I see them hugging, holding hands or kissing in the corridor, basically, it makes me turn into an emotional wreck. And the worst part is, I know that I could have had that, if I’d never said that we were better of as friends. Karma’s a bitch....

He’s not shy about the fact that we flirt, which is really confusing! He’ll quite happily walk along the corridor with me, arm around my waist, saying hello to all of his mates, then hit me on the arse with a book. In front of everyone. This usually leads to me kicking or hitting him, which will then lead to us hugging in the middle of the corridor in front of everyone. I half scared that one day his girlfriend will find out and come and slap me. To be honest, she’d have every right....

In conclusion, this hasn’t helped me at all. I’m still confused, if not more so, over which guy I like more than the other. But, going by instinct, I’m going to say GN2 (I can hear my friends going “Nooooooo”).  Even if he does have a girlfriend, that doesn’t mean that theres no chance there, and to be honest, at least he doesn’t ignore me like GN1.

Harry Potter...

So today is a VERY good day. You should all know why, but in case you don't, I'm going to tell you anyway. Today, the greatest day of all days........I bought my 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows pt 2' ticket. And thats not the best bit. Its for the midnight showing. In 3D. Anyone jealous yet? No? Well, to top all of this....I'm going in fancy dress! So, you're probably wondering why I'm bothering you with all of this useless drivel? Well, I need your (yes, your...) help. I need to decide which Harry Potter character to go as. I was thinking either Luna or Hermione, but they seem obvious. Which character do you think I should go as? Answers in the comment box please!



P.S. No pressure, but if I get no replies, I'll just have to accept that my blog is a fail and that absolutely none of you like me... Which means I'll have to annoy all of you even more....

Daytime tv Eurghhh......

So, the plan was, for my next post to say and show you (through the magic of photos) what I was making for one of my friends birthdays (Her birthday is the day 'Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2' comes out in cinemas. HOW COOL IS THAT?!). The trouble is yesterday, said friend started following my blog. So now I can't very well go and show you what I'm in the process of making her. Lets just say, I'm quite proud of it...


So now I'm faced with the dilemma of what do I talk to you lovely, lovely people about. Any ideas? Nope? Well then you won't mind if I mindlessly ramble on about anything will you? Good. So discussion topic of the day is..... Daytime TV - How utterly crap it is. (I told you to think of a topic....) 

At the moment, I'm on something called 'Study Leave', which is basically when the teachers either get sick of you or start getting scared of you. I should probably point out that everyone in my year is on study leave, not just me (I don't want to sound like some young,trouble-causing hooligan, who tries to deliberately ruin everyones education and/or life). So basically, I've had the past month or so off to 'study', and only gone into school for exams. 


So being the lovely, hard-working, A-grade (don't make me laugh) student that I am, what do I do? Sit down every morning at 6, and copy out my revision books word for word? No. I stumble out of bed at midday and watch TV until one or two in the morning. Now, I don't know how many of you watch daytime TV, but I think that everyone you ask will agree that it is atrocious. 


Take today for example, I turned the TV on at 10 (early morning for me!) and watched Jeremy Kyle for an hour and a half. If anyone here doesn't live in the UK, then you've probably never heard of or seen an episode of Jeremy Kyle. The closest American version I can think of is The Jerry Springer Show. Now Jeremy Kyle is ok for say half an hour, but after that the ridiculous story lines ("I changed my sex so my lesbian wife who was actually a man would love me." No joke.) become slightly tedious. 


So that took me up to 11.30. After checking the trusty TV Guide, I realised absolutely zilch was on. Well, nothing worth watching. So ended up channel flicking for 25 minutes before stumbling across Total Wipeout USA, which was pointless because by the time I'd found it, the credits were on. So its now 12, and I've seen nothing worthwhile on TV. But then, I find 'something'....Teen Cribs.


To those who have never seen 'Teen Cribs', I'll give you a quick run down on what its about. Basically it's billionaire's kids showing a MTV camera person around their mansions. Its unintentionally hilarious. Today, we were welcomed into a house that had a basketball court, rock climbing wall and golf course in a basement, half the house dedicated to the kids (about 20 rooms - all Harry Potter themed, good on them.) and an outdoor swimming pool with a little cave with a sofa and plasma screen TV and two slides.


Now, lucky for me, there were two episodes of this on, which filled in an hour. So its now 1 in the afternoon and I've spent my day sorting out one family's problems and basically 'spying' on another. Alas, though, the run of 'reasonable' shows on normal TV has run out, so I am now forced to flick to the other genre's of TV. First port of call, Movies. Out of the ten movie channels on my TV, not one of them shows the type of films I like (though I must add, in the first week of Study Leave I discovered the Disney Cine channel, which has been my saviour for the past month).  So with nothing at all on TV, I am forced to move from my comfy spot on the sofa and go and retrieve a DVD of some sort. 


So here I am, sat on my sofa, writing a blog post while Harry Potter plays in the background. Again. I know all seven of the Harry Potters word for word now. And if I ever get sick of Harry Potter (which will never happen...) then YouTube will take over and A Very Potter Musical/Sequel, Charlie McDonnell or Alex Day will be next on my list of things to watch.


So that is my mini rant over Daytime TV, which has been boring me for the last month. I think I'll go mad if I have to watch another episode of 'Jeremy Kyle' or 'Teen Mom' or 'Teen Cribs'...

Hello, again!

So I haven't been blogging for a while, due to the ridiculous amount of exams I've had (five exams in one week), which to be frank, should be illegal. Now, I could write an entire piece of writing on my exams, but frankly, I think that you would all get bored of me analysing how I calculated the profit increase for 'Lathoms Dairy' (business studies is such fun!) or how I analysed 100000 poems about their views of love (I managed to scribble down five pages on this in my english exam...). And besides, I've already done one post on exams, if I start reposting the same things, you'll all get bored won't you? So heres a fairly short post, as I'm meant to be revising. Heres 5 things that are on my mind right now....

1.My Birthday
So a couple of days ago it was my birthday (*breaks into a chorus of 'Happy Birthday to me'*). And, I must admit, I'm slightly disappointed that I didn't experience the feeling of "Ahh, its my birthday..." because, you see, I was in a maths exam on my birthday. So for half of my birthday, I was panicking over trigonometry, algebra and my skirt not being out the wash in time (my school has stupid uniform rules, and won't let you into exams with out 'correct' uniform). So, aside from the maths fiasco, my birthday was rather good! My friends excelled themselves as far as presents were concerned...A lovely Harry Potter poster (already up in my room), salt spray, perfume, a book about GLEE which was apparently a joke, but I'm actually reading, a tiara, two drawings of Darren Criss, a birthday card with photos of us on from now and when we were little (No one will see this ever!) and a homemade birthday card with all my favourite AVPM/AVPS/GLEE/ Charlieissocoollike/Alex Day quotes and pictures. Yet again, thanks soooo much to all of you!  


2.Boys
Now, where do I start with these? Since my last post focusing on the male species, a lot has changed concerning them. For a start, I have come to my senses and realised that the guy that I did like was a dick, and is a massive flirt/ player. So in a year, I've gone from liking one guy ('Guy number 1', as my friends originally code-named him) before moving on to the major flirt ('Guy number 2', as my friends originally code-named him) before casually moving back to 'Guy number 1'. Yes, thats right, I like 'Guy number 1' again. Now, I've been wondering for the past few days why, when I told my friends this, they all cheered and were happy. Apparently they've all seen what a dick 'Guy number 2' is and are happy that I've moved on. Apparently I was blind. Or deluded. So anyway, 'Guy number 1' is who I like now, so I can stop confusing everyone! (You have no idea how many times I had to proof read this paragraph to make sure I had the numbers the right way around! Don't even get my started on 'Guy number 3' (All of my friends will be sniggering now.)).


3.Charlieissocoollike and Nerimon
My new obsession, which apparently everyone has known about for years and years. Basically, Charlie McDonnell is a Vlogger with a huge amount of subscribers on YouTube. Similarly, Nerimon, more commonly known as Alex Day, is also a Vlogger with a huge amounts of subscribers. They're both hilarious, and, yeah, you should watch them...They sing Doctor Who songs together, isn't that enough?!.. By the way, Charlie is seriously cute....


http://www.youtube.com/user/charlieissocoollike?blend=1&ob=5


http://www.youtube.com/user/nerimon?blend=1&ob=4


4.Bitchy girls
So a bit of a mini rant going on here. As you probably know, for your birthday, most people on Facebook write happy birthday on your wall. Now, being fairly 'geeky' and not being exactly in with the 'popular' crowd at school, I don't expect many of these. BUT why, do the so-called-popular-girls then have to take the absolute piss and write things like, "HApPy Birffdayyy Sexy ;)"? I mean sure, we don't talk at school but then again, as far as I know, I've done nothing to upset you in anyway. Am I the only one who thinks that thats totally harsh, especially on someones birthday? Answers in comment box, please. I mean, even people who I don't particularly get along with, I still write something along the lines of, "Happy Birthday! Hope you have a nice day! :)" So anyway, thats my self confidence knocked down a notch on my birthday and mini rant over. 


5.Failing Exams
I know I said that I wouldn't mention exams, but they're basically ruling my life now! I've had 9 exams so far, and have two left. Last week was the worst! I had four exams over two days, and they weren't even subjects I like! History, Business, Maths and Science. After two days, I felt like I could literally sleep for a week! But, still, only two left, then I can go back to being nocturnal....

Harry Potter Vs. twilight. Let battle commence....

So today instead of revising, I re-read Twilight by Stephanie Meyer. It wasn't as bad as I remember it.... In fact I rather enjoyed it.... No, I haven't gone mad. And NO, I haven't betrayed Harry Potter (which I still prefer by miles, and miles, and more miles and maybe a couple more metres....) but, I don't see why their fans can't get on. I'm going to write four lists, Pro's and Con's of each series and then say which I prefer. Just realised I've already told you that, so theres no real reason to keep reading, but please do.... OH, and if your one of the few people who haven't read the books, or seen the films, then beware, spoilers ahead...

Pro's of Twilight

1. Sparkly vampires. Enough said really. They're vampires, who sparkle. If thats not positive, I don't know what is.
2. Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson in the films. Nothing really to do with the books, but the films would be terrible if it weren't for the occasional fit guy shirtless scene. 
3. The books almost make you want to be a vampire. They aren't the vile, horrible human blood-sucking things usually thought of. Stephanie Meyer has made the Cullens seem pretty much perfect; they're beautiful, they're rich (Alice's foreseeing talent working its best), they're strong, the list goes on and on, and on.... This makes the 'humans' in the book seem fragile and weak, so we feel like the only way to survive is to become a Vampire (which it true in some ways. Edward doesn't agree...).
4. The book is written from Bella's point of view. This means that it sounds like Edward and Jacob and Mike and Tyler and Eric are all in love with us. Not complaining at all.

Con's of Twilight

1. Its written from Bella's point of view. This means we have to put up with the constant complaints about the weather, how Edward hates her, how Edward loves her too much, pretty much everything. I pretty much hate Bella. She makes the stupidest decisions, all she does is complains, and goes on about how bad her life is. So annoying.
2. Theres some very questionable spellings and grammar.....Is "handsomer" a word? (page 52, third last paragraph). "We walked back the way we'd come?" Come? Shouldn't that have been 'came'? (End of chapter four) 
3. The story lines a bit predictable - I knew that Edward was a vampire before I'd even picked up the book.
4. Nothing really happens. Its hard to explain, but many of the chapters seem to be dedicated to the weather...
5. It would look weird if anyone other than a teenage girl were reading this. I can't imagine many middle-aged men enjoying them. Though, there is that one scene in Breaking Dawn....."why am I covered in feathers?"....

Now, I can talk for hours and hours about Harry Potter, so I'm going to try and keep this short...

Pro's of Harry Potter

1. The storyline is unpredictable and changes with every book. Deathly Hallows in particular has loads of twists and turns. 
2. The books show that no one is all good, or all evil and that people have both of these sides. This makes the characters much more three dimensional, unlike Twilight where characters tend to be only good, or only evil. 
3. It fits in with the 'muggle' world. The contrasts between the Dursley's house and the Weasley's, for example, are believable. If you know what I mean. 
4. J.K.Rowling's writing style. She deliberately didn't use metaphors or similes. Writing genius? Yes, I think so...
5. The films are amazing. That is all.
6. Has way more fans. According to facebook, the official Harry Potter page has 12,524,445 'likes' while Twilight only has 9,673,347 'likes'. Harry Potter has a musical dedicated to it, which is AMAZING.

Con's of Harry Potter

1. J.K.Rowling made me wait years for the next book. By the time I discovered Twilight, the books were all out in paperback. Though, this is no fault of her own...
2. They can get a little tedious when there are long spells of nothing happening. (I just got excited because I used the word 'spells' when talking about Harry Potter....) Admittedly, this doesn't happen often, but for example, half of the seventh book is like this - but, then again, its followed by the best ending I think I've ever read.
3. I'm struggling to think of any more....

So, if we add together the totals (number of Pro's minus the number of Con's), Twilight scores a grand total of -1, while Harry Potter scores a grand total of +4. Meaning that HARRY POTTER WINS.  Yey! So if for some bizarre reason you haven't read either of these series, read Harry Potter. Or, you could read Twilight first, then read Harry Potter immediately after, it'll make you appreciate the correct spellings more...

Boys....

So today I'm going to write about a subject that is largely over done on the internet. Boys. Hmmph. I'm not doing this by choice. After a serious case of writers block (or pure laziness - you decide), I went to my friends to think of a suitable topic. Boys won our vote unanimously. Yet again, I know nothing about this subject other than what I have learnt through my own experience with these 'creatures', so don't take anything I say to seriously. Okay?

 So, why? Why do they exist? Is is solely just to make our lives as girls as complicated as possible?! Though its not the most practical explanation, I think so. And so do most of my friends at this moment. We each have our own 'crush' and we all relish the thought that boys have managed to ensnare us. We hate them for it. We hate the thought that some guy can come along and break down every single barrier that we put up to protect ourselves from them, just by saying, "hey". What makes it worse is the fact that the guy obviously has no clue, no mater how plain we make it, that we like them! So we are faced with a choice, wait for the guy to realise his feelings for us, or face our fears, and tell him. And face the fact that they have the power to make our day, or ruin it completely. 


Take the guy that I like for instance. He's an utter dick. I'm not just saying that, he actually is. He has a girlfriend, but insists on flirting with me everytime we see each other. And because I like him so much, I can't help but flirt back. I'm probably breaking some unsaid moral code for girls. But, he now has the ability to alter my moods in accordance with how many hugs I get off him a day:


Zero hugs - I spend the rest of the day feeling depressed, not talking to anyone, in a serious case of shock, thinking I've done something to make him mad (seriously).
1-3 hugs- I spend the rest of the day crying on my friends shoulders about how he doesn't like me.
4-6 hugs- I have a really lovely day. Really.
7-9 hugs- I manage to convince myself that maybe I have the slightest chance with him, even if he does have a girlfriend.

So this is what my life has resorted to. Thanks to boys, I'm spending my Sunday evening analysing how many hugs I get, whether they mean anything and how they make me feel. I haven't even mentioned the fact that he draws hearts on my arms, feels my legs up or hits me on the arse with rulers....Thanks for that.


I'm not the only one either. One of my friends crushes saw us at school the other day. He gave us both hugs, but hers was definitely longer. We spent the next hour, with our other friend, discussing whether this meant anything. Then theres the whole argument of 'Hugs don't mean anything, so get over yourselves and stop over analysing everything'. No thanks! I will keep hold of every little thing that gives the slightest clue whether he likes me or not! And if that means including him holding on slightly too long after a hug, then so be it...


Then again, this could lead to us turning into the over obsessive stalkers, who start off analysing hugs, but end up following and staring at their 'crushes' excessively. And nobody likes an over-obsessive, clingy, needy, desperate girl. Especially boys, which is slightly ironic, don't you think? 


Social networking site such as Facebook have made it so much easier to become those 'stalker-like' girls. We now have to ability to browse through their pictures, see who they've been meeting up with, the list is endless. I once knew a girl who made a list of everywhere her crush went (according to Facebook), and frequently went to them, just incase he re-visited. When she did eventually 'bump' into him, she got such a shock that she just about managed to stutter a 'hello' before making her excuses and stumbling outside, running to get away from him. 


We also have the use of inbox and chat tools on these sites as well. These bring up their own sets of problems. Which is more intimate: Chat or Inbox? Personally, I've always thought inbox, because then you could look through everything he's said (right back to stalker-ish behaviour). But now, Facebook has merged the two together! I don't know whether this is a good thing or a bad thing. It means that I can re-read EVERYTHING, but it also means that he can too, which isn't necessarily good, with the amount of stupid things I say. With inbox, theres also the whole, he's online, so why hasn't he replied to the message I sent 13 minutes ago, "I knew I shouldn't have messaged him! Its been 13 minutes, he obviously hates me! I'm going to die alone with 472 cats!" Yes,this is really what runs through our heads when guys don't respond quickly. This usually leads to three hour convosations with our friends, trying to reassure each other that our crushes don't hate us, and that they're probably just busy or the little red number didn't pop up. 


So, guys, next time you see a girl staring at you, or keeping tally charts on the number of hugs you give her, please, please don't just ignore her. If your not interested - stop messing her around, give her a bit of space. If you are interested -  ask her out? Unless you dating someone else, then don't be a dick, because trust me your not doing her any favours. What. So. Ever...